Are you Transforming Yet? [Quarantine Day 59]

The current pandemic is transforming the world. But that’s not the transformation I’m talking about. I’m talking about gaining more spiritual awareness and becoming more connected to the source.

Let me tell you more about me.

I used to be a super-Type A personality – extremely driven, very ambitious, and unfailingly self-confident. I’m still very confident, but I’m not relentlessly compelled by the need to accomplish a goal or have too high of aspirations that require me to bust my butt to achieve them.

Lest you think I’ve given up on life, it’s not that either, lol. I’m just motivated by a different goal these days – a goal that’s less on the materialistic end of the success spectrum and more toward the spiritual end of it.

And now, let me tell you how I got here.

For as long as I can remember, I was a workaholic. I’d celebrate a job promotion for barely a day or two before pushing for the next one and the next one. The sky was the limit in terms of what I wanted to achieve – making money was the obvious end-goal.

Then life happened. Some professional ventures didn’t pan out the way I envisioned. And personally too, life was in turmoil. I’m not a complainer, have never been one – so I didn’t complain about life being unfair and all that BS. I just simply stepped back and stopped doing all the activities that I enjoyed doing – networking, making business deals, exploring new opportunities, and of course, making money. I shut down everything.

I was in a blindspot. I couldn’t see beyond the immediate, the pain, and hurt, and oh, let’s not even talk about the anger at the unfairness of it all.

And that’s what a very learned man taught me about getting connected to the universe, the source of all energy.

Here I was, a techie, extremely left-brained – analytical, logical, detail-and fact-oriented. This connecting to the universe was so far from my thought process that it seemed like la-la land stuff to me. Out of respect for the person in question, I tried the process. But I was skeptical. And I think the universe knew it too, lol.

But once, after a particularly blue-feeling day, I threw out all the doubts and focused.  I fervently believed in the process of being connected and let it flow. And color me shocked but within days, what I asked for [read, begged for] came to fruition.

I was truly taken aback. Perhaps it was a fluke, I thought. But I shook off the negative thoughts and slowly became a believer.

I know I’m still not fully connected.  But every day I’m learning to resonate more/better. My blindspot is becoming more opaque and I now I more clarity – of purpose, action, and behavior.

Earlier, I lacked total faith in the process. [Faith is a necessary ingredient for anything we want out of life. Everything starts with faith – it’s such a small word but its power is unfathomable.] And so I became faithful. It was also important to remove distractions and become more detached. To that end, I got off most of my social media accounts, limited my interactions with people, and learned to better control my emotions.

I’m still a bit too emotional and not as detached as I need to be. And that’s perhaps why the change within me is not as obviously visible externally.

And that’s why 2020 will be an important year in my transformation journey. This year, the focus will be on becoming more detached and less emotional.

Already, the change within me is profound. The way I think now is light years different than in the past – then, my mind was constantly churning – now it’s at rest. Then, there was constant angst, about what I want and where I want to be in 5 years or 10 years (career-oriented). Now my laser-sharp focus is on doing things that will bring joy and happiness [life oriented].

As I always say, I’m still a work-in-progress, and thank the universe for that. Cause if I weren’t, I’d be dead, lol.

P.S.

If you’re looking for ways to connect to the universe, you don’t need to take any classes or buy any books to learn that.

  • Sit in silence and meet yourself, daily [read my blog here]
  • Believe in what you want and put it out there for the universe to act upon.

I’d love to hear about your journey or help you get started on yours so post a comment or connect with me on Instagram.

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